I’m learning Thai now, however taking a second out to weblog as a result of I used to be studying the phrase ตั้งแต่, which suggests “from” (time). So I made the sentence:
ฉันเริ่มเรียนภาษาไทยตั้งแต่เดือนเมษายนปี ๒๐๒๐
(I began studying Thai in April 2020)
And it bought me pondering. It’s been virtually two years since I began studying Thai. I’d be trustworthy and say that a part of me doesn’t prefer to say that I began virtually two years in the past, as a result of there was a protracted interval in between the place I didn’t contact Thai in any respect, and truthfully, it’s solely firstly of the 12 months (I believe) that I began to be much more severe about it. *pauses*
Then I ask myself, why ought to I be so insistent on giving this entire spiel, and never with the ability to merely say I began studying “two years in the past”? I believe it’s as a result of a part of me thinks that I may have been sooner if I had spent extra time on it, and that it seems like I’m not making a lot progress regardless of it being two years. And I begin to evaluate it towards previous me who did much more inside two years for Korean and Japanese.
However nah. That’s simply me being aggressive with myself and for a second, I forgot that I simply wish to having fun with learning the language and never fairly care about how briskly / sluggish I’m. I ought to care extra about how a lot I benefit from the course of.
It’s human nature to be aggressive, whether or not it’s with ourselves or with others. It’s nice to carry ourselves to excessive requirements and expectations, nevertheless it’s simply actually unhappy if we do this for every little thing in our lives. Self-discipline is nice, however society has positioned an excessive amount of significance on it. We’re simply too caught up in the concept that we must be productive. For what? Positive, there shall be areas the place it’s nice to be productive, however there should at all times be stability in life. And I hope that studying Thai is the exercise the place I can simply loosen up and be myself.
So, any more, I’ll simply say that I began studying Thai in April 2020! 🙂
